Wednesday, September 30, 2015
Czeslaw Milosz (1911-2004) - Photograph by Allen Ginsberg, courtesy the University of Toronto's Thomas Fisher Rare Book Library, Allen Ginsberg Collection]
TO ALLEN GINSBERG
Allen, you good man, great poet of the murderous century, who
persisting in folly attained wisdom
I confess to you, my life was not as I would have liked it to be
And now, when it has passed, is lying like a discarded tire by the road
It was no different from the life of millions from which you rebelled
in the name of poetry and an omnipresent God
It was submitted to customs in full awareness that they are absurd, to the
necessity of getting up in the morning and going to work.
With unfulfilled desires, even the unfulfilled desire to scream and
beat one's head against the wall, repeating to myself the command, "it is
It is forbidden to indulge yourself, to allow yourself idleness, it is
forbidden to think of your past, to look for the help of a psychiatrist or
Forbidden from a sense of duty but also because of the fear of unleashing
forces that would reveal one to be a clown.
And I lived in the America of Moloch, short-haired, clean-shaven, tying
neckties and drinking bourbon before the TV set every evening.
Diabolic dwarves of temptations somersaulted in me, I was aware of their
presence and I shrugged: It will pass together with life.
Dread was lurking close, I had to pretend it was never there and that I
was united with others in a blessed normalcy,
Such schooling in vision is also, after all, possible, without drugs,
without the cut-off ear of Van Gogh, without the brotherhood of the
best minds behind the bars of psychiatric wards.
I was an instrument, I listened. snatching voices out of a babbling
chorus, translating them into sentences with commas and periods.
As if the poverty of my fate were necessary so that the flora of my
memory could luxuriate, a home for the breath and for the presence of
I envy your courage of absolute defiance, words inflamed, the fierce
maledictions of a prophet.
The demure smiles of ironists are preserved in the museums, not as
everlasting art, just as a memento of unbelief.
While your blasphemous howl still resounds in a neon desert where the
human tribe wanders, sentenced to unreality.
Walt Whitman listens and says, "Yes, that's the way to talk, in order to
conduct men and women to where everything is fulfillment. Where
they would live in a transubstantiated moment."
And your journalistic cliches, your beard and beads and dress of a
rebel of another epoch are forgiven.
As we do not look for what is perfect, we look for what remains of
Keeping in mind how much is owed to luck, to a coincidence of words
and things, to a morning with white clouds, which later seems
I do not ask from you a monumental oeuvre that would rise like a
medieval cathedral over a French flatland.
I myself had such a hope, yet half knowing already that the unusual
changes into the common.
That in the planetary mixture of languages and religions we are no more
remembered than the inventors of the spinning wheel or of the
Accept this tribute from me, who was so different, yet in the same
For lack of a better term letting it pass as the practice of composing
[translated from the Polish by the author (Czeslaw Milosz) and Robert Hass]
(for a translation of this poem into Spanish by Adam Gai - see here) -